Question

So lets see.. most recent news-- the other day, I walked around Soho and got completely lost while looking for the pump which started the Cholera epidemic in London in the 1850s(?). I ended up stopping in this store that had a bunch of Yankees stuff and other American sporting team stuff in hopes that there was someone nice who would point me towards Broadwick Street. Turns out, it worked, one of the guys working googled it or something for me. Thank goodness. Either way, I found the pump and the pub right beside it dedicated to John Snow (the guy who figured out why cholera was spreading so fast in that area).

Anywho.. the question portion of this blog.. If I turned in all my work for my courses early and took the final exams for my capa and math perspectives course a week early.. could i leave this godforsaken country? I wish that were possible, but I know if I brought it up.. I'm almost positive that everyone would tell me, you only have 2weeks left, just suck it up. I've never felt depressed in my life, but for some reason, most of my time spent here is class, sleep, schoolwork, and facebook.. and thats just pathetic and depressing. I just want to go home, where I can drive and not take an hour to get to a destination that's fifteen minutes away..I want to be able to call a friend when I need to talk.. I want to be able to see my family.. I want to be able to see my boyfriend...I want to have my wireless internet back.. I miss the US.

15 days til home..maybe sooner if I can figure it out..

Alone

I never realized just how alone someone can feel in a city filled with so many people. I would honestly give anything to just go home at this point. Yeah, I know, I should be having fun, I'm in London, right? Thats easy for anyone who isn't here to say. It's easy for people here who always have someone to talk to or hang out with at any given time to say. It's easy for anyone who has a homestay family who has other students to say. But for me, I feel like I'm stuck. I love my host mom, don't get me wrong, but she's rarely here. The friend who planned to hang out with me the whole time while we were going to be here.. yeah, that fell through and she's ditched me a large portion of this trip. Sure, maybe that means I should go out and find someone else to hang out with.. but you know when you planned to do something and were really excited about it.. well its not such a great feeling when you get screwed over and nothing really goes as planned. That's where I'm at today.. this week.. this month.

35 days until I get to go home.
38 days until I'm with the love of my life.

Those are the only things keeping me going at this point. Those and schoolwork to keep myself busy.